Exams have just ended for me (hence the lack of updates until now). It was a tough exam...took me by surprise. It was kind of depressing when you either don't know how to answer the question or there is not enough time. And the finals were hard...i left the exam hall disappointed, sad, worried, scared, etc.
I am not a poet. So what do I do if I want to express myself in words? Well...i'll use the Bible then. The words below quite closely represent the feelings i have/had.
1 Then Job replied:
2 "If only my anguish could be weighed
and all my misery be placed on the scales!
3 It would surely outweigh the sand of the seas—
no wonder my words have been impetuous.
4 The arrows of the Almighty are in me,
my spirit drinks in their poison;
God's terrors are marshaled against me.
5 Does a wild donkey bray when it has grass,
or an ox bellow when it has fodder?
6 Is tasteless food eaten without salt,
or is there flavor in the white of an egg?
7 I refuse to touch it;
such food makes me ill.
8 "Oh, that I might have my request,
that God would grant what I hope for,
9 that God would be willing to crush me,
to let loose his hand and cut me off!
10 Then I would still have this consolation—
my joy in unrelenting pain—
that I had not denied the words of the Holy One.
11 "What strength do I have, that I should still hope?
What prospects, that I should be patient?
12 Do I have the strength of stone?
Is my flesh bronze?
13 Do I have any power to help myself,
now that success has been driven from me?
Job 6:1-13
I know it is kind of an exaggeration (Job went thru a lot) but the feelings i had were just that. I studied my best, did what i thought best, all the time depending on God and look the outcome? I know the results are not out yet but i probably dread that day.
But, like Job, in all things, Laus Deo.
Ian
